My recent thoughts......

It is so crazy that I hate Maryland--I wanted to leave Va., and explore different opportunities. I wasn't going to move to Md. being some one's girlfriend--too old for that.....I think it was a turn around for me when I lost the HOUSE. I felt and reasoned with myself that in needed to be freed from the bounds of the HOUSE. I thought with whom I married was my knight in shinny skin. I have looked around a looked at what was really real around me......and the real of what saw was not so shiny or pretty or wonderful at all. It has been an unpleasant experience with the move here. At the onset the Girls were not having an  easy adjustment.

Things I don't like:
1. Place/area
2. Rate of pay
3. It is not what I hoped for
4. People
5. Behaviors and the mindset of the people

Family is very important to me and appearance seems to be important to others. I thought that the children and the adults would come together and enjoy the union. In a city with all these family members no contact with them at all. We have to drive almost 14 hours see the people that mean the most to me.

Every day I complain about where I am and what I am not doing. I have decided to devise a plan to improve the situation.

1. Complete MBA
2. Submit the National Certification application
3. Clear up the issues on my credit
4. Move and buy another home
5. Get closer to my family and develop a better relationship with the people whom means the MOST to me.

The list doesn't seem long--I think I can do it. The amount is the same on both ends of the scale.....

Hello My Old-New You!!!

We as the female group --will have to learn that everything that shines anit a real thing--it could have been the sun in your eyes that caused you to be missed lead. How do you correct your mistake? Own-up to the mistake by being honest to yourself, put on a pair of Coach framed shades and step out on what you know to be TRUE--and that is all you have known for the better part of your life, "your own free will". You enjoy your ability to maintain your life style on your own. You relish in "making moves" when ever how ever you choose to. You feel good with watching your children achieve their goals that they set for themselves, knowing you had a HAND in it. Plan your return to "LIFE" and then watch the barriers roll out the WAY and then you will be able to see thru the bullshit and OBSERVE the real beauty which is the Old-New You.............Love Always, Tonya Johnson

What a PRODUCTION

I could not believe that I was the mother of a 21 year old. I was shocked to have raised a child that now has a child. I have been all over the place with the fact my child has a child. I had hoped that she would have prepared me mentally for our blessing. I know so many of US wanted more and better for our children. I know I spent 18 years trying to get myself ready for my child to become an adult. I had hoped that she would be a senior in college entering into her graduate program. I hoped that she would be an intern for the next fortune 500 company. I had hoped for my child to find the cure for cancer and HIV. I hoped that my child would be getting ready to design the next skyscraper. But instead my daughter has produce the most precious production of them all MY GRAND DAUGHTER- MIA E. HAGA....I couldn't ask for anything more from her.