It is so crazy that I hate Maryland--I wanted to leave Va., and explore different opportunities. I wasn't going to move to Md. being some one's girlfriend--too old for that.....I think it was a turn around for me when I lost the HOUSE. I felt and reasoned with myself that in needed to be freed from the bounds of the HOUSE. I thought with whom I married was my knight in shinny skin. I have looked around a looked at what was really real around me......and the real of what saw was not so shiny or pretty or wonderful at all. It has been an unpleasant experience with the move here. At the onset the Girls were not having an easy adjustment.
Things I don't like:
1. Place/area
2. Rate of pay
3. It is not what I hoped for
4. People
5. Behaviors and the mindset of the people
Family is very important to me and appearance seems to be important to others. I thought that the children and the adults would come together and enjoy the union. In a city with all these family members no contact with them at all. We have to drive almost 14 hours see the people that mean the most to me.
Every day I complain about where I am and what I am not doing. I have decided to devise a plan to improve the situation.
1. Complete MBA
2. Submit the National Certification application
3. Clear up the issues on my credit
4. Move and buy another home
5. Get closer to my family and develop a better relationship with the people whom means the MOST to me.
The list doesn't seem long--I think I can do it. The amount is the same on both ends of the scale.....
This makes me sad. I love you.
ReplyDeleteIt makes me sad everyday--but I have a PLAN
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