I always have great ideas---and I start strong with a plan----and then I’m derailed---my man (at the time), my attitude, my job (not career) AND always my children. Well people I have decided to practice what I preach to my clients and random youth at the store or serving me at an eatery---GO TO SCHOOL---take a class. I have started and am almost shame to say 2 different MASTERS programs. Well Monday no Tuesday I will start turning in the paperwork to start the 3rd and the last MASTERS with Liberty University in Counseling---complete it alone with my LCP supervision hours consisting of 4000. OMG, YOL, and LOL I got it. I will not allow myself to get anymore lazy then I already am.
One day I was sitting in training and the counselors were tasked to assist with diagnosing a client---and heck I thought they were talking about me---that’s because I think everything is about me. The fact, my oldest adult daughter will be having a daughter herself and once again people I thought it was about me. I was Angry because how all my hard work was in vain—because like a wise younger friend of mine advised me during my break from yelling and cursing the world---It’s her life and she’s an adult. Blah Blah. She doesn’t have a plan………
Let’s see I have had several plans and many were incomplete. I have started about 2.5 books, 3 strap books for each daughter, 2 masters programs, several jobs, online magazine, blogger, bike club, social club, non-for-profit/for profit agency and 3 marriages. I have been pregnant a few times but only completed 3 so I’m saying that to say WTF, is wrong with me. Well my people I am about to get it popping and complete something. Today I finally completed uploading my second wedding photos to lulu.com and it appeared to me that I could start and complete a small book to my 3 completed children about my life and lessons I want to teach them to be able to refer to after I leaving this old world.
First thing first place the pictures I want in the book: with me, with their dads, and just of them and maybe some family pictures with my mother and Madea of course. I realize I do well with writing bullshit about other people lives let’s see what I come up with about mine. I have some things written down---but once again I can’t remember where those notes are located.
Second, I will create an outline and organize what I WANT Them to learn from their mother. Once I had started a written version and it was a little too graphic and I had to stop but this world we live in today is graphic and the world I lived in was none to nice. I think I will do a little each week with the writing parts and work on the pictures last and upload it to lulu.com and print three copies and present THEM with the completed books NOW no need to wait until the younger ones turn 18 because the oldest will tell. I’m not so sure about the sexual parts of me they need to know---but I’m sure it will be a little more than they ever wanted to know about MOM.
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